Random Thoughts on Chapter Endings and Beginnings

A good author knows to end a chapter with a surprise hook--and then open the next, new chapter with a question, either stated or implied. How will the character handle this latest unexpected turn of events? Will it be an impetus for change or a cause to despair?

The plot of my life's story has included many surprise twists and turns. What originally seemed to be a tragic twist of fate soon evolved into a new path, a change of direction into uncharted adventures and higher reaches of personal growth.

Many of you know that this past summer our family faced a new life chapter with one of our daughters that we thought surely foretold a tragic ending. But as the story unfolded, little Kai's entrance onto the scene has brought numerous surprise blessings none of us could have imagined before. Not only has our prodigal returned, but the beautiful baby boy she bore has ushered into our lives a season of spiritual growth and insight I never expected--not to mention the love and pure sweetness he brings.

A couple of weeks ago, I posted about the spiritual lesson I learned as I watched Kai sleep and realized how I love him just for who he is. He doesn't have to DO anything, he simply has to be. And it struck me how our Heavenly Father longs to be with us, to share our company. We can simply BE. He loves us for who we are, not for what we do or don't do.

This past week, I've been struck by another Kai lesson on spiritual growth--"The Infant's Art of Trusting." A baby has no comprehension of the behind-the-scenes time, effort, and expense that goes in to meeting his needs. He simply knows someone rushes to meet his every need when he cries.

While this most recent chapter in my life story comes to a (surprise) ending with the closing of Barbour's HPMysteries book club line, and the subsequent cessation of my full-time employment, I've been tempted a few times to give in to sadness, disappointment, and yes, fear--until I'm reminded how my Heavenly Father is working in ways I can't even comprehend to meet my needs. (I'm also reminded of the tremendous blessings I've received throughout this most recent Barbour chapter--the opportunities to work with the most fabulous editors and writers in the world. . .and to actually get PAID to do what I love most, read mysteries!)

As I turn the page and begin a new chapter. . .full of questions. . .I look forward to the lessons the Lord will teach me, and the ways He will, once again, prove He will provide for me.